As I sit deep in the November woods, with the wind whipping around me, I am reminded of my multifaceted personality. I am a liberal who can dream, and at the same time wanting to be a free rural neanderthal. I can write well and put ideas down on paper, but to do things with those ideas is much more difficult. I know at lot, but do not fully understand all the nuisances of rural life. Let me break down what I see to be my two conflicting personality types:

Liberal

• Dreamer who can think of anything and who can write anything that he wants
• Believer in liberal causes such as free speech, environmentalism, pacifism, and individual
• Believe in good government as a tool to open opportunity and to protect the individual against forces that deny his full autonomy

Rural Neanderthal

• Individual who wants to do something with his knowledge, to be a truly rural individual who can work with his hands to build great things
• Be able to farm, build, hunt, control his world around him, even though he currently lacks the knowledge, experience, and resources to do such a thing
• Distrustful of government imposing it's will on individuals, particularly in deciding what actions are good and what cultures should be superior

It is so difficult to be limited largely to the written word and the imagination and be able not to do all those things that in some way or another I want to be able to experience. I am stuck with the roots of my parents, the people who tried to fortray into the rural life to a degree with small livestock like chickens and goats on their six acres. I can never be the farm kid that I somehow dream I could be, instead I find myself stuck to a degree in my liberal model.

Overtime, I will be able to change and get away from my parents' lifestyle. I will most likely forever be a liberal, and will take liberal attitudes to some issues in society, but I can also become somebody else. Maybe I do not want to take all of the values of rural neanderthal, but I can accept some of them and change them as I best see to be the truest expression of who I am and who I want to be as an individual.